Where?

Do you ever find yourself in a place such as a job, church, etc and wonder, "Is this where I am suppose to be?" If it is, why is there still a "void" feeling while I am there?

You ask yourself, "Have I settled?" "Lord, am I really listening to you and taking your direction or am I just jumping in head first telling myself that as long as I am not hearing NO then it must be okay to do this or that?; To leave here to go there?; To go instead of STAY!"

Lord, over these next couple of days and always, speak to my spirit. Give me ears to hear and eyes to see! Give me the strength to make the decisions that need to be made to bring into my life YOUR plans and purposes and to take out the things that need to be removed.

Trial-Run

Corban's birthday is on the 20th of this month. My little man will be turning 1.

I am going to make his birthday cake as well another cake for everyone to eat his birthday party.

Here are pics of his trial-run bday cake that will be served at his party for him. It is a cupcake pull-a-part cake.

My Life

I can look at my life and know that I am blessed beyond measure.

1) I am a Christian and washed by the blood of the Lamb; a gift that was given freely to me just by believing
2) I have a wife that loves me unconditionally; which trust me, because I know me, is hard at times
3) I have a son that brings much joy to my life and another little one on the way.
4) I have a roof over my head and shoes on my feet, two vehicles, one paid for and the other about to be and the only debt we will have is our mortgage
5) I have a God that watches over my coming and going
6) My wife and I have a job that brings in a decent income and are not in "need" of anything

So, since I know ALL of this, why does my soul get discouraged? I put my hope in God but there are many times throughout the day where I "think about life" and allow all the cares of the world get to me.

Having a child or more than one can take up a lot of your time and sometimes I find myself lacking in studying the word of God. There is a longing in my heart when I have been out of the word for a while and I know that there is nothing that can fill that longing except for a closer relationship with God.

Most of us have no idea how entrenched we are in the rut of routine. Externally, everything looks fine. Our activities often revolve around the church and Christian friends and the day to day humdrum. Unfortunately, this rut of humdrum activity can numb our souls until we find ourselves in need of spiritual refreshment. It it then that we need to pull out of that rut and take a different path. But how?!

James 4:8 tells us this, "Come near to God and he will come near to you" So, the answer is this, "God has not moved! It is us that has moved." Draw near to God and he will draw near to you.

Lord, I'm drawing closer! It is when I am closest to you that I have no worries about tomorrow. Heck, I have no worries about today when I am closest to you. It is at your feet that I want to stay Lord. In your presence is peace ever lasting. May I be a better steward of my time to allow for more and more of you to fill more and more of me!

A letter to my Son

Dear Corban,

A year has almost come and gone since you were born. In 19 days you will be 1.

I still remember when your Mom told me that she was pregnant with you. I felt joy like I never had before. Yes, I have experienced joy in my life but this was a different kind of joy.

Throughout the nine months of you growing in the womb I would talk to you and sing to you. I watched you roll from one side to the other and your mom would tell me that when I came into the room and started talking you would move to that side of her belly as if you were listening.

The day you were born was like no other! To see you enter into the world and take your first breath is an experience that I remember as if it was yesterday. This year has really gone by fast.

Oh the many things that God has shown me through you! I can remember changing your diapers during your 1st few months and I would be kissing your feet and watching you smile and laugh and one thing I remember God showing me was, "That is all I want you to do Eric...sit at my feet, kissing me and spending time with me!" Corban, you will never have to prove yourself to me. I love you for who you are, simple as that!

Having you has allowed me to feel how God must have felt to give up his Son to die for us. There is NOTHING in the world that could ever take my love from you. You, along with your Mother, are two people that I would give my life for.

Through surgerys, midnight feedings, 2 am feedings, 4 am feedings, and some sleep-all-nights I grow to love you more and more.

You started crawling at about 10 months and you are just about to be able to walk without holding on to anything. You took off crawling and haven't stopped yet! I have so much fun crawling behind you and chasing you around the house grabbing the back of your legs where you are ticklish and watching you laugh and take off again.

During this time in your life, if you could talk, you would probably tell everyone who asks that your name is NO-NO. It Seems every time we turn around we are having to say NO-NO, but that doesn't stop you because you turn right back around and try it again. This only confirms that you are my child; or maybe your mothers. :)

This letter to you has been a very short recap of your 11 months on earth so far. I cannot wait to see what the next year will bring and just so you will know, it is bringing you a little brother or sister. Yup! I couldn't believe it either! I know that you will be the best big brother ever!

I hope that I can be the best Dad to you and that you will know that you can ALWAYS come to me and talk! I love you Corban.

Random pics...Christmas, toys, family, hospital, feed me because I am standing infront of my high-chair! My growing Son who is almost one!

Total damage cost

The total cost of the damage to the Explorer is $2,055.24. The good part about this whole thing is that the other persons insurance is paying for everying including the rental for the 2010 Ford F-150 that I am driving. Which can I say that it is SWEET!

They should have the Explorer ready by Friday. I wonder if they will?

Call me when you get in..."good-bye"

I can't or won't do it any more!

I make myself available to you when you come into town, at the time that you said we would get together but time and time again it never happens. I sit around waiting for you to call me and tell me you are in and on your way, or lets meet at such and such place for dinner.

I hate saying "good-bye" to a friendship but I think that is the only choice I have.

So, "good-bye friend." Thanks for the laughs and the tears! I will always cherish the memories we have. The good times! Saying good-bye now lets me do that because if I keep "waiting" I will start to get bitter and I do not want that.

I do believe the sky is falling...

It is Sunday morning at 6:45 and I let the dog out about 20 minutes ago and saw snow falling. Very light, and mixed with rain, but snow none-the-less! The temp outside is 55. I think this just goes to show that weather people know nothing or that they really CAN'T predict the weather because God is going to do what God wants to do! :)

I am currently taking Darvocet for pain. I was putting Corban on his changing table yesterday morning and about the time I was lifting him I sneezed and pulled the muscles in my back. When I sneeze, I sneeze hard and this time it didn't even come out so that made it worse. I am using the leftover Darvocet that Jennifer had post prego with Corban. It is still in date and working fine, though not 100% but something is better than nothing.

We went and saw my knew neice yesterday, baby Addy, along with visiting her mommy and daddy, my sister and brother-in-law, but you know when the baby gets here its all about the baby and not about the parents anymore! jk!

I need to get off this thing so I can shave and start getting ready for church. But before I go who can tell me what a great pic for a laptop would be. We are looking at purchasing one just for internet use but I want it to be good too. Please leave a response. Thanks!

Pics of my damaged truck...

To see how this happended, read previous post.

Missing my Blog...

I have been missing writing on my blog. I blame it on Facebook! It is so easy to post on there and keep moving on. Well, I am going to start writing on my blog again...on a regular basis. Maybe everyday, every other day, or once a week. Either way, if you are reading this now be sure to continue to check back once a week.

To get started I will make a list of "Life Happenings" and from there will keep it in a journal form. Here are things going on:

-The house is still for sale. Lots of interest but no offers.
-Jennifer and I will be a Mommy and Daddy again in September. Yup, baby #2 is in the oven now.
-Because of baby #2 on the way, we REALLY need our house to sell so be praying!
-Corban will be turning 1 on Feb. 20th. I can't believe how fast a year has gone by. Party plans are in the works.
-A lady pulled out in front of my father in law last friday in my Truck. Everyone is okay but the truck will be going to the doctor on Monday to be repaired. The accident was her fault so her insurance company will be paying for everything including a rental.
-My grandfather (Poppy) passed away last wednesday so I left for Florida early Thursday morning to attend the funeral and be with my Granny. Keep her in your prayers as she will be having some hard times ahead of her.
-We are attending Church on the Rock. It is a growing church and the pastor and music pastor and their families are people we have known for a while and it has been great worshiping with them again.

That's all I can think about and I hope it brings you up to date. Remember to check back at least once a week to stay updated.

:)

9 Months - Family Christmas Pictures

Corban visits Santa!